Pancakes Flip Backwards
Still on the topic of change.
I'm wondering if i have changed.. as in personality wise.
how do you figure out if you've changed?
is there a quiz for it?
toffee beans stick to teeth[9:29 AM]
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haha! continued from xiao bai's blog.
we haven't seen each other for 5 years! yah! that's how long!
oh no!!! it's like those korean drama where they go '10 years later' and show everyone grown up and all.
ewwww!
people change.
I change.
so of course my friends will change too.
so it's kinda strange.. how i can accept me changing but not my friends.
and it's really weird... to read a friend's blog and realise you no longer know that person well any more.
in fact... you probably don't understand her anymore.
but.
i'll still be your friend.
i realise i don't know what it means to miss someone.
which is strange.
the only time i really missed someone was when my sis went to america for one month.
toffee beans stick to teeth[6:42 AM]
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sigh..
i've been feeling very unoriginal, very uninspired, very uncreative and highly highly unskillful lately.
For one whole month actually...
Everything i do seems so cliche and done to death.
Every idea i come up with lacks omph and that sheer stroke of genius.
Everything everything everything.
damn!
it's very fustrating.
My brain feels like a stack of hay. sticking out all over the place.
and horses are slowly munching away at it.
My senses feel dulled.
And i just keep feeling so tired.
help!
sometimes i wonder if it would be better if i was in the cavemen era.
Then everything you think of would be completely amazing and new.
Now... everything you think of is either already done,
someone else thought of it too albeit in various versions,
or worse still someone else thought of the exact same thing
or you thought it's completely original but actually it's some masterpiece
that you saw before and it lingered in the back of your mind expect you didn't completely realise.
damn.
and then i think of all those ppl i know with way way way way more talent than me
and they went to study in JC and i will keep thinking
IF they came and studied design.. all these talented ppl, i'll probably be
just peanuts then,
No. not just peanuts. the worse sick blackish with furry mould peanut.
i hate my hands sometimes. Cos' in my mind i have all these wonderful wonderful visions
and images and graphics but my hands fail me every single time.
or it just wouldn't listen and turn out some crap instead.
Stupid hand!
i must be on a low moral drive.
which brings me back to my first point.
I'm on a low moral drive because i'm feeling very unoriginal, uncreative and uninspired.
toffee beans stick to teeth[8:42 AM]
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